Page 153 - Not good enough

Writing these pages was...tumultuous. I had been in a writer's block and artist's block for months, slowly eating through the buffer I had built up. Then one day, at work, something happened. A few days before, a coworker lent me "The Speed of Light" by Alex Shein. As I listened to it, I kept starting to cry. I didn't have any idea why, but with it came the urge to write and draw. For most of the morning I tried to ignore it, but finally I just decided to take some vacation time and go home. So I did. I packed up, went home, put on the same music, and started to draw and cry. It felt like a big, black bubble of poisoned oil and tar had been welling up in me, and suddenly in that moment it burst. I just drew and drew with tears running down my face for no reason, needing no reason, until I didn't need to anymore. All things told, I blazed through many pages in only a few hours, starting with page 149 and ending here. It was an intense, exhausting, and difficult experience, but in a way it was also a very beautiful experience.

It was a very alive experience.

I've run out of words.

Page 152 - Not afraid, not alone

Some of you may not remember that Brand has healing abilities, which he is using now, and which he used HERE for the first time.

And he's all wolfy...because I can.

Page 151

Ow.

Page 150 - Reminders

I know this pages is slightly confusing, but the next page will make it make sense.

Page 149 - I am glad

I think I've tried three different versions of this page. This section just keeps getting hard and harder to write.

Page 148 - Boom

Dramatic entrance much?

Page 147 - Space Case

I meant to post this last week, but I forgot. THIS is the song that I think of, when I think of Hans. It's one of the songs my Chorus is singing right now and, since I am the Tenor (aka - High Soprano) part I think of it the way I sing it. So there's a recording of me singing it on my own. Since the other four parts aren't there to complete the chords, it can be a little shrill. Sorry about that. I did the best I could. I just thought you might be interesting in knowing what it sounds like in my mind.

Page 146 - Moment of Silence

Page 145 - Final Fantasy

Oh Hans. Hans, Hans, Hans. We have GOT to get somebody for you to talk with, other than yourself. This monologuing isn't healthy. Especially self-abusive monologuing.